I’ve been asked the same question a lot lately. You know the “How has life been!?”
I think we all know how that scenario goes, we typically respond with something along the lines of “Oh, I’m doing great!” or “Doing good! How about you?” as we shift the limelight elsewhere.
However, if I’m being completely honest, I’ve been really struggling. As a mom, as an entrepreneur, a woman, and as a spouse.
Ever felt like you can see the situations but no matter how hard you try you can see it all spiraling out of control? Yea, well that’s me these days. Sorry to be Negative Nancy, but I’ve straight up felt like the universe has been against me.
I’m lucky if I’ve put on clean clothes and deodorant (gross I know). When I do get dressed up it only ends up covered in food, milk, slober and whatever else soon after. Besides the fact that I look like a mess, my head has been a mess. I haven’t felt this disorganized and off my mental game in my whole life. Hell, 4 year old me had it more figured out.
I’ve even googled early symptoms of Alzheimer’s because I can’t remember isshh. You know when you’re looking for your phone only to realize it’s in your hand? Yep, guilty but like times it by 1000.
It’s like as soon as I get my mind going to tell myself “I can” the door gets slammed in my face.
But do you know what I’ve found?
Ironically, I’ve also been too busy for God. I’ve been running on empty and trying to do it all with out recognizing that I haven’t devoted much time to prayer or His greatness. I’ve pretty much put Him on the back burner.
Now before you click out because I got all religious on you, hear me out?
So yeah, I’d put him on the back burner and guess who’s decided to show up? That’s right the devil. He knows I’ve been trying to have a perfect life, house, etc. He knows when you are vulnerable and that’s when he attack’s.
He’s been tearing at me little by little waiting for me to crack. And honestly, I’m ashamed to say that I have cracked a few times. I’ve taken my frustrations out on friends and family. I’ve blamed everyone and everything possible for my unhappiness.
All the while all I needed to do was acknowledge that it’s been out of my control because I let go of God and decided to go on my own path. Instead I should have realized that I need Him to show me my path.
Sure you hear it all the time. Put your faith in the Lord and he will help you overcome your obstacles. Well, I do believe it’s true and the older that I get the more I NEED him to help me.
In the midst of all of this I recently read a blog post about the prophet Elijah. It talked about his story how he had overcome crazy obstacles and the miracles he had seen God perform. Out of all the miracles he had seen, it only took the threat of a wicked queen for him to loose faith. He became tired, overwhelmed, and discouraged. He asked God to take his life.
However, God had a different plan for Elijah and helped him back on his feet. He gave him sleep, food, and drink. He reminded him of his strengths and let Elijah know that his purpose wasn’t yet met.
I feel so deeply connected to this story because, I too, am tired. I get hungry and forget to eat well because the day gets busy. I too need more fluids. I need to nourish my body better to be able to fight the obstacles thrown at me.
Now I’m not saying the Lord ordered me take out and a bottle of wine and things have been better. Honestly, I started this journey to nourishment in the past week and a half, but I have faith. I have already seen little things take turns and enjoyed the moments a little more rather than worry about the dishes. But I have been praying hard.
I’ve sat in my truck and just said out loud “I Need You” because nothing’s going right.
I’ve had weight lifted off and I’ve been more energized to take on the day.
Moral of the story, don’t forget to incorporate God info your daily life. If you let God slip to the back burner, you’re giving the devil an opportunity to torment you. Life is hard, no doubt about it, but talking to God has really helped me during my struggle.
To read more about the story of Elijah, visit 1 Kings 17-19 in the Bible.